Friday, March 19, 2010
Its been a year..
Or a year and a couple of months to be a bit more accurate, but we can call it a year since That Day. In that year a few things have changed: we sold the house, gave away almost all our possessions, worked hard to get the boat in a more livable condition, and moved forward. So, what has it been like this last year+? A few thoughts.
Biggest change? Time: Kristi and I have much more time together. We go for walks together, shop together, movies, coffee, most everything together. Our mornings are relaxed – we get up, have coffee, make breakfast, watch some TV and check the internet. Unless we have something pressing planned we get going by 9 or sometimes 10. I am fortunate to have someone I love to spend time together with.
Fear: Personal Economic Fear – like it or not, Money is a core commodity in ones life. We are all living through the most severe economic downturn that I have ever known, and by most accounts the worst one since the Great Depression. The fall before That Day, Kristi and I had settled on a plan – dump the house and move to the boat. Even so, we were not in a great space. Unemployment helped some, getting out of the house helped a LOT. Over the past year my consulting job has helped, and the investments have done well. (the Financial Hail Marry looks to be a success!). This was not my 1st time being laid off (hazard of High tech I suppose), and I do remember sharing with folks that I had faith things would work out. Looking back over my short life I can see that when I had a need, it was filled in some way (and not just Financial needs BTW), so I was taking Faith in that things would work out. I am fortunate to have a belief system which allows me to have Faith, that I am being watched over and was not alone in all this.
Boat: It always surprises me how slow things move in the boat. Sure, a lot has been done, still she is not done. Maybe this has something to do with the getting going by 9 or 10 thing! Even so I am mostly happy with the progress to date. A bit concerned about the excess weight on the nose; perhaps can adjust the ballast some to compensate. She is getting close, I am fortunate to have a worthy craft and some level of skill to be able to make desired changes to her.
Family: We have seen the Children get a year older and wiser, along with us it seems J. Grand Kids get a year older and wilder! Family work through Cancer, accidents, illness. And some showing signs of an additional year more than others. (I did hoist a Pint to my God Mother this Saint Paddy’s day…) Some have had it tougher than others; in the end we have one more Family member as a year ago. Actually more if we count extended family! And all are finding a way to make it through the days. I am fortunate to be connected with a diverse group of folks -- we are not meant to be alone.
Anxiety: OK, this one is more about the last 10 years then the last year. We are about one month from Pulling the Plug, and despite having worked towards this goal for a long time it IS a big change. And there is STILL a lot to get done on the boat. So I find myself anxious at times. But then I remember this is not a final change, we can always choose to take a slip in the future, or even – awk – some other larger change. I remember that no matter what, things will work out. There will always be some way to accomplish the rest of the projects on the boat; it just might be less convenient getting materials and supplies. This is about the Journey, not the destination. Or maybe a journey is a series of destinations, or, well, something like that. In the end I am excited to be making this last transition, am sure will get the Anchor and Cork installed in time, and mostly: I am fortunate to have someone I love to take this journey with.