Sunday, March 28, 2010

Life is like a roll of toilet paper.....

Yesterday morning, Al was sitting with his computer on his lap and he read to me:  Life is like a roll of toilet paper--the closer you get to the end, the faster it rolls!'

Now, I had heard this saying before, mainly in context of birthday cards for people 'of a certain age'.  But apparently Al hadn't heard it before and thought it was funny.  And it is, mainly because it is true!  And I responded 'I thought it was the title for another blog post!'

Well, he wasn't writing a post, but through the day, the more I thought of it, I thought it SHOULD be the title of a blog posting.

We ARE nearing the end of life as we know it, and time is rolling away from us faster and faster and FASTER!  Al is experiencing great anxiety.  It is unusual for Al to sleep well anyway, but he seems to be experiencing more difficulty than usual recently.  He is feeling the great burden to finish a couple of very important projects, which are taking a bit longer than he expected, what with parts ordered not arriving in a timely fashion.  Still, he allowed three weeks of cushion time, and we STILL have all that time available to us.

Part of the pressure is that he needs to do most of the boat work on his own.  I just don't have the physical strength, or the knowledge to be of  large help.  I follow him around with the vacuum cleaner, fetch tools, and try to organize.  He wanted me to clean out the overhead storage at our slip, but I couldn't even do that!  I told him, 'It ALL looks like junk to me!  I'd be happy to haul stuff, but YOU need to sort through it first.'  Which he did.

He thought the floor project would take a week to 'prep', but it has been two.  However, progress IS being made, and it is looking like it will be beautiful!  He should begin actually applying tiles today.  I am excited!

But time keeps rolling faster and faster.  We have less than a month now to move the remaining of our worldly possessions out of the apartment and garage and onto the boat, somewhere!  I still don't know where most of it will go, but Al says 'Don't worry!'  So when Al frets about his projects, I say 'Don't worry!'

Recently I began listening to a different radio station.  My favorite station is no longer my favorite since they disbanded the morning crew I had loved for so long.  I no longer drive to work in the morning, so I probably wouldn't have listened to them much anyway, but now I am listening to a station that plays popular music, of a generally more 'restful' nature.  This has been Al's station of choice for quite some time.

Also, I have a quite active dream life.  I have said, but haven't done yet, that I need to put a notebook by the bed and journal my dreams.  Well, lately, I have been waking up with songs running in my head.  And today it was a song by R.E.M.  It ties well with the title of this blog post.  The main lyrics of the song are filled with chaos, but the refrain goes:

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.

That end is in sight, but we have a LOT of chaos to deal with yet.  But the song ends like this:

It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine...fine.
(It's time I had some time alone)

Our life IS this song right now--filled with chaos!  And in sight is the end of the world as we know it.  But it will end with feeling fine, and spending some time alone.  
I know it will be good.